Neil Cadger

My little "big" brother meant the world to me. We fought and argued liked brother and sister did, but i never realised just how much it would hurt to lose him. You expect them always to be here! Its been 2 years and still hurts like it happened yesterday. He was taken far too soon and had lots to live for.
My heart now has an empty space, which can never be filled. The only thing i can look forward too is meeting him again someday, whenever that may be.
I never expected that the morning he left for work would be the last i would see him, talk to him, laugh with him. Theres so many things i would have wanted to say, but if i knew it was going to happen i would never have let him go.
The only comfort i can take is knowing he died instantly and he suffered no pain. The impact of the crash was so quick it was over instantly. A blink of the eye and he was gone.
Having noone to blame is hard to accept. Knowing there is no reason why he can't be with me.
They say life goes on and it does, but acceptance takes a long time, and today i still cannot accept hes not here to share my special times. Never be at my wedding, see my children or meet his nephews.
i do know one thing though. God is very lucky to have my brother with him. He really is one in a million. Irreplaceale, unforgetable and very much loved and in my heart forever.

I love you! I just wish you could be here to tell you in person or else had the chance to say before you left x x